how much waiting sucks? I believe I have.
I'm still waiting if you haven't noticed. But that's only because there was something missing from my application and I just sent it in today. The wireles isn't working and hasn't been working for a few days now, I don't know why. I'm using my parent's computer that has an EDGE connection. It's incredibly slow...but it's something :) (remembering the good ole dial-up days...)
I am ill with a staph infection. But it's not that bad, I'm doing quite well actually. Currently I am studying for an American Government final I have in about an hour.
I feel rather boring right now...I don't like that feeling.
Let's dig a little deeper, shall we?
I'm a little bit upset right now. I feel I don't really know where I'm headed. God knows everything, where I am going, who I am going to be...I got nothing. I'm so blind to everything it's scary sometimes. I do trust God, and I believe that's the only reason I haven't driven myself insane. I just wish I could get a glimpse, of something, ANYTHING really. I love what God has done in my life, all the things He set me free from and all the miracles He's done. But God wants to do something RIGHT NOW. TODAY! I just wish I knew what it was...*le sigh*
21Fear not, O land; be glad and rejoice: for the LORD will do great things.
Joel 2:21 (King James Version)
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
Waiting sucks
so here's the deal:
Pastor Ralph was suppose to send out the pastoral reference form when he was in New York 3 weeks ago. But for some reason there were NO STAMPS ANYWHERE. How that's possible? I have no idea. Anyway, he left it with his brother's secretary to be sent out last monday. Of course, what just HAD to happen? Secretary left it for the last minute, and when it was time to sent it out...it was nowhere to be found. MISPLACED. :O But pastor Ralph was quite the responsible fellow and he print out the form AGAIN, filled it out AGAIN, and sent it from here through a mail company. It should be arriving in Australia between yesterday and next tuesday. *phew*
It's all good now. But now I have to wait. Even more. I was talking to pastor Ralph yesterday about this whole "application process". I was just wondering if I should be sure of what God has planned for me concerning this. Should I start planning expecting a yes? Or should I brace myself for a no? I guess this is where faith starts taking its place. From what I have seen, God does want me at Hillsong. But I have to remember that I'm human and the only one who can see the finale of this is God, NOT me.
So what now?
I wait.
and wait.
and pray.
and believe.
and wait.
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven
Ecclesiastes 3:1
Pastor Ralph was suppose to send out the pastoral reference form when he was in New York 3 weeks ago. But for some reason there were NO STAMPS ANYWHERE. How that's possible? I have no idea. Anyway, he left it with his brother's secretary to be sent out last monday. Of course, what just HAD to happen? Secretary left it for the last minute, and when it was time to sent it out...it was nowhere to be found. MISPLACED. :O But pastor Ralph was quite the responsible fellow and he print out the form AGAIN, filled it out AGAIN, and sent it from here through a mail company. It should be arriving in Australia between yesterday and next tuesday. *phew*
It's all good now. But now I have to wait. Even more. I was talking to pastor Ralph yesterday about this whole "application process". I was just wondering if I should be sure of what God has planned for me concerning this. Should I start planning expecting a yes? Or should I brace myself for a no? I guess this is where faith starts taking its place. From what I have seen, God does want me at Hillsong. But I have to remember that I'm human and the only one who can see the finale of this is God, NOT me.
So what now?
I wait.
and wait.
and pray.
and believe.
and wait.
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven
Ecclesiastes 3:1
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Hello world!
Or rather, the ONE person who will read this. (Hey Brittany!)
If there is anyone else, hello to you as well!
Let's talk about my day, shall we?
At 4:30 in the morning, I awoke to the sound of my parents shuffling about in the living room. Today they left for quite the journey to the airport and off to the US of A. After being disturbed by the sounds of static on my grandmother's television, I attempted to fix the loud problem and off to bed again I went. After failed attempts at falling back into the bliss of sleep, I lay in bed going through thoughts in my brain.
The rest of my day is nothing I will bore you with. It was basically therapy, traffic jams, schoolwork, sandwich for integration, glass breaking, moment alone with the palm tree and the coconuts, more schoolwork, confusion, home again, mythbusters, a C on a history exam, thoughts, Still Standing, and blogspot.
Okay, let's get to the REAL point here. Why am I starting this blog? Exactly a week ago yesterday I applied for my dream college: Hillsong Internation Leadership College. I'm incredibly nervous and anxious for a response. Today I recieved an email from the application department and almost passed out. I reminded myself to breathe, and then I proceeded to read it. It was a question and a request, not an answer. The question was whether I minded the hills campus instead of the city campus (they have two campuses and I had chosen the city one) and the request was to send 2 passport sized pictures of myself. So yes, I have not recieved an answer yet.
I pray for God's will to be done in my life. I trust in God completely. I know that if I get in, it will be his will, and if I don't get in, it will still be his will. I do hope that I get in, and I will still be on the edge of my seat until I hear an answer.
In this blog I plan to keep track of my college application process, whether it continues to be Hillsong College or the process of new applications. Thank you for reading.
Oh, and every day I have a choice. To either let the crazyness and the chaos of my days to get to me and disturb me, or to hang on dearly to the peace that I have found in Jesus. I have decided to keep my peace, what will you choose? (remember, true peace can only be found in God through Jesus Christ. :D )
26 Then the man said, "Let me go, for it is daybreak."
But Jacob replied, "I will not let you go unless you bless me."
Genesis 32:26
If there is anyone else, hello to you as well!
Let's talk about my day, shall we?
At 4:30 in the morning, I awoke to the sound of my parents shuffling about in the living room. Today they left for quite the journey to the airport and off to the US of A. After being disturbed by the sounds of static on my grandmother's television, I attempted to fix the loud problem and off to bed again I went. After failed attempts at falling back into the bliss of sleep, I lay in bed going through thoughts in my brain.
The rest of my day is nothing I will bore you with. It was basically therapy, traffic jams, schoolwork, sandwich for integration, glass breaking, moment alone with the palm tree and the coconuts, more schoolwork, confusion, home again, mythbusters, a C on a history exam, thoughts, Still Standing, and blogspot.
Okay, let's get to the REAL point here. Why am I starting this blog? Exactly a week ago yesterday I applied for my dream college: Hillsong Internation Leadership College. I'm incredibly nervous and anxious for a response. Today I recieved an email from the application department and almost passed out. I reminded myself to breathe, and then I proceeded to read it. It was a question and a request, not an answer. The question was whether I minded the hills campus instead of the city campus (they have two campuses and I had chosen the city one) and the request was to send 2 passport sized pictures of myself. So yes, I have not recieved an answer yet.
I pray for God's will to be done in my life. I trust in God completely. I know that if I get in, it will be his will, and if I don't get in, it will still be his will. I do hope that I get in, and I will still be on the edge of my seat until I hear an answer.
In this blog I plan to keep track of my college application process, whether it continues to be Hillsong College or the process of new applications. Thank you for reading.
Oh, and every day I have a choice. To either let the crazyness and the chaos of my days to get to me and disturb me, or to hang on dearly to the peace that I have found in Jesus. I have decided to keep my peace, what will you choose? (remember, true peace can only be found in God through Jesus Christ. :D )
26 Then the man said, "Let me go, for it is daybreak."
But Jacob replied, "I will not let you go unless you bless me."
Genesis 32:26
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